Almost all of these were .rtf files that can't be dated, and some of them don't even have a title. Anywhere from 2005 to 2016.
A myriad of paths before me places I've never been and dark and light both lay behind the life these eyes have seen. So many decisions yet to make my mind goes to and fro which choice, which path I ask is best for me to go? And then I find I'm sinking my pacing carved a groove so I have to step upon a path or else I'll never move.
The leaves of crystal trees, like frozen teardrops lay, upon the snowy, blanketed fields in a land so lost, and far away. The likes of you and I, I dreamed, standing close within the snow, your eyes a-glow when you turn to me and say it's time to go. Like frozen tears from crystal trees, I fell hard to the ground, My love is gone, taking my heart, I have lost what I had found Yet still I dream of crystal trees my sad eyes glow anew, when you turn and set my world aflame, as you meant I should come too. And I wake to frozen teardrops, a snowy storm begins to start, I gently touch the space where you should be, just a dream I wake without you from, and you still have my heart.
It's empty the space where you should be, like a dark hole in the fabric of my life. I cannot touch what is not there or hear a whsipered sigh, it's just... space. I fear to even walk within it, if I do can you still appear? I don't know... it's just... space. I guard it though. Just in case.
It only takes a moment to feel you gone from me to churn my gut to tear my heart to set my demons free It only takes a moment to know you're not around to make me cry to make me scream to have lost what I have found It only takes a moment without you, feeling small to flatten me to make me blind to make me weak, and fall So give me one night of happiness the likes I'll never see again to be with you to share with you It's my prayer to God. Amen.
some say that I'm not happy I wonder why that's so as when you give your love to me I smile, sing and glow. some say I'm just a dreamer hanging on to you I guess that's right this crazy love what else am I to do? some say I should be grateful you let me be around but they don't know the way you are the way you have me bound. I say I'm just a person what else can I say? I live and ream and love you lots but you still push me away.
Mirrors cast reflections, and they say they never lie But when I pass one, you're there with me helping to straighten my tie. And when I turn to hold you and pull you close to me all there is, is empty space, that's a cold reality. Mirrors cast reflections, they say they never lie and in them I see me and you. Lying reality. Makes me cry.
Sometimes it seems in life we see, the chains around us no way to be free, they hold us, keep us planted firm, no room to move, no way to worm. But then I see your smiling face, turns my world back into place, and I break the bonds that cause me strife, and keep your vision in my life, and pray for the day you call to me, break those last chains, and set me free.
What makes me want to be with you and keep you close to me when all you do is shout and scream and berate me constantly What makes me want to hold you run my fingers through your hair when all you want is to be alone and say how little I care What makes me want to love you no matter what you do I don't know I really don't I haven't got a clue.
Standing in the tide of time looking out to see spies the lonesome warrior my Bastard sword and me Ever glowing, ever bright I step into the flow my spirit set upon the world from nothing will I grow.
I built a road on which to walk one for me, alone. so I could wonder through the Realms, for past crimes atone But it seems the turns and twists I take, no matter what I do, now lead me on a winding path, that leads right back to you.
What did I do to you to make you feel this way to leave me standing all alone again, another day. Why do I feel that I’m the one to blame for all of this when all I do is hunger for a soft and gentle kiss. How do I fix this cold and terrible thing heal my heart so it can be free again to sing.
It's cold out there where other people are. Freezing in here inside me. Make me warm.
As I grew up I got to see how life plays how it might be. And as I aged I finally saw what this aching lonely heart was for Now I feel old and wonder why I'm still alone. I want to cry.
Flutter-by butterfly gently on the breeze your friends have all gone home I wonder what that means...